So, since I failed a class this last semester I decided to take the summer off. Get my head right, relax (hahahahahahaha) and just get my bearings on life. But since busy is my only way of survival I have decided that if I was not taking classes, I would instead job hunt. Send out resumes, apply, write cover letters and hopefully interview just so I can get some practice under my belt. My goal with going back to school and getting my degree is to make a better life for my family. To find a stable job with room for growth and benefits. So we can live a bit more comfortably and so all the weight is not on Matt. 

Well, I have been sticking to it. I have been researching career options, job titles and companies. One particular company I have my eyes on posted a great job last week and I ponced. This company gets incredible reviews and seems to really take care of their employees. I filled out the application, nailed my cover letter and surprise surprise this week received an email back!!!

I was taken to the next step which was an assessment test. So I went into this test thinking it was just going to be a basic assessment. Man was I wrong. 2 hours and an ungodly amount of stress later I finished. The end of the test had me answering multiple choice math questions while reading fake emails that would only be posted for 15 seconds with information that would eventually pop up in another set of questions. It was the most ridiculous thing ever. Seriously, I spent more time swearing at my computer than learning about the company. And what is this really going to show them? Wouldn’t they rather meet me in person and see how warm, kind and fucking adorable I am rather then see if I can multi-task some bullshit math and remember an email that was posted for 15 seconds???? 

Anyway, pretty sure I bombed the shit and blew my chance with them. I guess we will wait and see. Until then, I will keep applying and practicing. At some point I won’t fail at one of these tests right???? Happy Friday

XOXO

The Shitty Housewife

So this week is finals. And let’s just say the only word for my preparedness in this department is…..shitty. I mean first off, I thought finals were next weekend. I thought this whole semester that this week was a study week and next week were exams. So when I got the updates from my teachers wishing us luck this weekend, I was a bit stunned.

And here I am. I should be studying, prepping, flashcarding, or some shit. And what am I doing? Drinking a beer on this beautiful Thursday night, gazing at my new garden, while my children frolic and scream, all around me.

I just don’t have any left to give these classes. I am so worn out from these chapters and assignments and discussions. BUT THIS IS IT! Seriously, a couple more days and my time and chances to succeed are over. And let me tell you…I need success. I am going into these finals with some pretty shitty grades. Doing well is key. But I have not put in my time this week. So that is my shittiest move. Knowing these exams are here and not picking up my books to study.

But I need to stop. I have until 3 pm today with my kids, then heading to work. After that I sit down and end two classes. Hopefully I can pull some magic out and do okay. That is all I am asking for. Just to do ok…C’s get degrees right?! Hopefully the saying D’s get degrees applies to that as well!

So as always, Fridays I like to talk about the crappiest thing I have done during the week. Sadly, this week, it wasn’t just one event. It has been on going for me, all week. MY KIDS HAVE BEEN MAKING ME CRAZY. I don’t know what is happening. Nothing with them has probably changed, I just have had zero patience. And when you have 3 small kids, the only thing you need to survive a day is just that…patience.

I’ve done a lot of scolding, sending to rooms, me walking out of rooms to take a breath. I’ve done it all. A lot this week. I refuse to blame it on all of the things I need to get done during the day, that I can’t seem to do, because I am in full parenting mode. And I know I can just stay up later, wake up earlier, do more during the baby’s nap time, while the older O’s are resting. But whatever the reason is that I have been extra frustrated this week, I just need to remind myself…. it is not their fault.

They are kids. It is their job to be wild, crazy, annoying, rebellious, needy, cranky, and whiny. That is all they know. Now if my husband was acting these ways, well that would be another story. But they are kids… our kids. They get these things from us!!! They are only acting out because it is a part of their journey. I just need to figure out how to make it a part of mine without getting so feisty.

So this week, I was just shitty for not recognizing this earlier. And trust me, I am not beating myself up over it. I know, I know, we all have our moments. I am just here to openly tell you my crappy moves through this blog. Maybe in hopes that someone will relate. Maybe someone else will wake up with some rage and read this and be like “Oh yeah, I’ve kinda been a bitch too. Maybe I should settle that shit down.” So that is my plan. We are embarking on the weekend and we have lots of fun shit planned, we don’t need my cranky ass getting in the way. Lord knows we have the best three employees here at the O House for that.

Surprisingly, I did not have a lot to pick from this week. This week was one of those weeks that went insanely fast and between work, school, kids, life….Matt and I barely saw each other. I wasn’t too bad of a mom either. Everyone survived (so far!)  I did shitty in school, but what else is new.

So most of you don’t know that I am a full time college student. IT BLOWS. I like hate it.

So yesterday was my daughter’s birthday. All week we had big plans to surprise her and take her to the fair. We got there and she and her brothers were all smiles. Rides, carney food, rides, games, rides…….my worst nightmare.